Playing the piano this morning made me realize I have a war going on within me…
been an emotional few days.
I want to be happy. It’s who I am.
Currently though fighting low-energy, irritation & frustration… I’m not mad. Almost sad.
Yet my hope is in God.
I thank Him for putting a tool (the piano) in my life that helps me. Gives me energy…
It’s beautiful. It’s sounds bring me more beauty. It helps me to understand myself… I play how I feel… sometimes happy notes, sometimes sad notes, sometimes angry sounding notes… today was both sides of the spectrum.
I use to do the same thing when I drew… happy faces, sad faces, angry faces… more of the latter when I was a teen… aahh hormones!
Can we really help/know others unless we know ourselves? The Bible says we love others as we love ourselves. How many people really like themselves? Accept themselves as they are? People are my passion, but they are also, well, frustrating…
I frustrate myself too.
I accumulate piles. Projects. Ecclesiastes speaks that it is better to finish than to begin. I ‘learned’ that years ago reading the Bible, but alas, I still find myself wanting to do MORE than I possibly can in a day, a week, a season.
Peace really is the guide.
I realized that too this morning when writing about clothes. I try NOT to keep anything unless I feel beautiful in it. I like variety, but not at the cost of peace. I don’t have to hold on to things that don’t fit either ‘cuz that’s not trusting God to provide… and trust me, He provides! I’ve been MANY different sizes this last year, and God provided just what I needed along the way. Most of it I didn’t even have to buy… it was given to me!
Ya think He’s trying to TEACH me something!
Hopefully I won’t have to keep going around ‘this’ particular mountain (like the Israelites in the wilderness)… hopefully I’ve learned my lesson = God provides.
Helps with greed,
We don’t have to STRIVE, we can trust… He’s got our backs.
Aaaahhh the war within settles down and peace pervades… my emotions, my thoughts and my body relax.
God is good.
All the time.
I can trust Him… with everything.
John 8:31-32 = know truth, truth sets you free.
Did I mention he does all this because He loves us!
“He will quiet you by his love”